For the past few months, I have been struggling. This is not something I would typically admit and I rarely reach out to ask for help, but the truth is there are times when we all need it and that is nothing to be ashamed of.
Sometimes I have to admit to myself that I take on too much and try to please too many people. It is one of the downsides of having a type A personality. You feel a constant need to be going and doing, but often you end up in a place where you are going so fast and doing so much that you run into a wall.
When I decided to start my own business about 5 years ago, I was driven to make it work. I knew it would take an extreme amount of hustle and perseverance, but I felt I was prepared. I knew being able to work from home, make my own schedule and take care of my family was important to me so I was ready to make some sacrifices to do that.
Fast forward to today and my business has skyrocketed beyond anything I could have imagined.
- I am production assistant/co-producer on 4 different podcasts.
- I do social media marketing and management for 10 clients on over 50 social media sites.
- I manage 3 e-Learning Programs.
- I write content for blogs, websites, emails, newsletters, YouTube scripts and more for many clients.
- I work as a project manager on multi-million dollar real estate acquisition, asset management and development deals.
- I help plan major events all over the country.
- I am a Property Manager for one Airbnb and 17 Commercial Properties in Texas and Georgia.
- I do major research projects for books, articles, marketing and more.
- And that is really just the tip of the iceberg.
There is so much more I could add there, but I think you get the point. I am busy and constantly in the middle of something.
On top of that, I am the mother of two wonderful children. My 15 year old daughter; smart, beautiful and funny with my smart mouth and her own style. And an 8 year old son; autistic, hilarious and with a unique set of problems that have tested everything I knew about motherhood.
I am a mother completely alone. I have no co-parent that assists me physically, emotionally or financially. I do not get every other weekend off to breathe or catch up. I do not have someone as back up who can drive my kids to events, therapies or doctors appointments. There is no one to help me keep a clean home, cook meals, do laundry, fix things around the house or run errands. At the end of the day everything falls onto my plate.
Now listen, I am not complaining. I have many, many things to be proud of and joyful for. Let’s face it though….all of this comes at a price. A toll is taken and at times you end up looking back at the day feeling as if you didn’t do enough.
Why is that though?
What is it about us that makes us think we are not enough when the truth is we are doing our very best?
Why do we fight so hard to get ahead and even when we do still somehow feel as if we didn’t fight hard enough?
Why do we tell ourselves that the goals we have already accomplished are somehow diminished by the ones we have not?
I do not have all of the answers here, but I know I am not alone. While I may be alone in many things, I know in this I am one of many.
So if you are doing your best, but do not feel like it is enough-YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
If you are working towards a goal that you have not met yet-YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
If you feel like you are pushing a boulder up a 90 degree hill-YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
If you feel like you are the only one, alone, feeling this way-YOU ARE NOT.
People will not always admit when they are struggling. They think it somehow weakens them to admit they are having a rough time, but if it makes one other person feel better to know that I am right here with you struggling too, then I will be the one to stand up and say it. I wish more people would.
